8. Cyborg
Selfhood and the Texture of Identity: Danielle's Baby meets the 16th
Canadian Regiment
i
We live in the shadow of
the First World War. While World War Two, with its accompanying
Holocaust on one continent and its nuclear culmination on another,
may be a more obvious candidate for the defining conflict of the age,
it was the “Great War” that made the mid-century totalitarian
regimes possible, and the Great War as well that redefined our
notions of heroism, our notions of the distinction between
combatants and non-combatants, and our notions of the place of the
human being in the conduct of warfare. It was this conflict that
introduced the world to war as an industrial process—a process
whose output, mass-produced as certainly as any car on Henry Ford's
production line—was dead bodies, shattered minds, and devastated
landscapes. And it was this conflict that, on the largest scale
imaginable at the time, introduced the notion of the soldier as
subordinate to his weapon, not in a dry academic sense but rather in
a sense immediate and visceral to the men on the front lines:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iec7Xoos6JA.
The war produced casualties previously unheard-of: about 37 million
all told, including 16 million killed and 21 million wounded
(http://www.princeton.edu/~achaney/tmve/wiki100k/docs/World_War_I_casualties.html)—to
say nothing of the psychological damage for which no reliable
statistics exist.
But it is not to recount
the large scale history of the War that I am writing this post: other
writers have done that. Nor do I intend to take a partisan stance:
the war was endorsed in the classrooms, promoted in the media, and
preached from the pulpits on both sides. Both sides devoted their
full energies and industries to developing ever more efficient ways
of killing and demoralizing the human beings opposing them:
weaponized aircraft, aerial bombs, more powerful artillery, tanks,
chlorine gas, mustard gas, phosgene gas, and flamethrowers to name
the obvious.
Instead, I'd like to
share some Wilkie family history. But even there, information is
limited. Exactly why my grandfather, both of his brothers, and all of
my grandmother's brothers enlisted, some in Scotland and others in
Canada, is something I can only guess at. Patriotism, nationalism,
romanticism, or a simple yearning for adventure and glory? None of
that has come down to me. All I have are a few dozen photographs, a
lifetime of reading, and a few word-of-mouth stories recollected from
conversations with my now-departed dad. From that uncertain mix,
though, I think I can reconstruct a fair sketch of my Uncle Arthur.
ii
Born in Edinburgh
sometime in the 1890's, Arthur Lindsay emigrated before the War and,
according to my dad, volunteered shortly after his new country's
declaration, enlisting in the 16th Canadian Regiment
(Canadian Scottish). From here, it's possible to trace him at least
in general terms. I know that he was at Ypres in the spring of 1915
when his regiment, along with the 10th Canadians, stood
its ground against the first large-scale use of gas while the French
Territorials with whom they shared that part of the line fled their
trenches. I know that when the German shock troops came over
expecting little more than corpses and downed men drowning on their
own bubbling phlegm, they instead found unbroken ranks of Canadian
infantry, their faces still wet from breathing through piss-drenched
handkerchiefs, with machine guns manned and bayonets fixed. And I
know the effect that the 2nd Battle of Ypres, as that
encounter is called, had on my country's identity.
What I don't know is how
Uncle Arthur passed most of his life after the guns first into
silence and then into obsolescence. But this big blank space between
his military service and his final years has never been empty for me.
It has held, and continues to hold, the potential pasts of all the
other men whose names I don't know, who also got out of the War
alive. Work and family. Summer vacations. Maybe slow weeks at a
cottage or weekend afternoons at the beach. Backyard barbecues,
family gatherings, and Christmas dinners. Weddings. Christenings.
Funerals. Saving for retirement. Service clubs and civic obligations.
Annual uniformed parades. Tobacco. Whiskey. And a great deal of
silence about what had gone before.
Where his story resumes
is in the Veterans' Home in London, Ontario: psychiatric ward. In his
last years, he seems to have forgotten who he was. No longer
answering to Arthur, no longer recognizing his family name Lindsay,
he now responded only to Tommy. And it was as Tommy, not as Arthur,
that he died. For years, I carried that transformation in my head as
part of our family history and so, at least in some small way, as
part of who I was. But as the years passed, I continued reading and
thinking about the War, finding in its horror and filth not just an
understanding of my family but, I believed and still believe, a way
of seeing through the illusions we put up around ourselves. Then,
while reading Lynn MacDonald's 1915, a recounting of the first
full year of the War largely as told by combatants, it struck me that
foot-soldiers fighting under British command were called “tommies.”
I knew then exactly what
had happened to Uncle Arthur: as his brain failed, and the person
he'd once been ebbed toward non-existence, another identity emerged.
Not an individual identity—not a “person” in Locke's sense (see
the first post on this blog)—but a collective identity: one
component in a flesh-and-steel machine that had sprawled south from
the English Channel to the Swiss border. It also occurred to me that,
although my uncle had physically survived the War, the identity
“Arthur Lindsay” had finally become one of the last casualties of
the trenches.
iii
These realizations are
now long past: I've been sharing some version of them in the
classroom for the last 12 years. But I'm beginning to realize that
the tragedy of Arthur does not end where I've typically left it. Just
as the First World War reveals a truth that humanity hides behind its
many thin and comforting illusions, so the senescent re-configuring
of an old soldier's self reveals a truth behind the smaller-scale
illusions embedded in our birth certificates, passports, tax
receipts, and hopes for immortality.
What is the relationship
between who we are and who we perceive ourselves to be? Even at the
most basic level to be articulated in the modern Western
world—Descartes' famous realization that “Cogito ergo sum”
(“I think, therefore I am”), problems emerge. Descartes arrives
at this minimal piece of absolute certainty through a process of
systematic doubt, moving through the unreliability of all received
knowledge and all suppositions that he cannot directly confirm, and
the fallibility of the senses and thus any observations made through
them. Since that time—and arguably for a good deal longer—the
unitary thinking subject has been the foundational unit in Western
philosophy and politics. And on its surface, the logic is compelling:
insofar as one must first exist in order to think, it follows that
thinking is a reliable indicator of existence.
But the argument breaks
down when applied to the identity of the thinking self. To put it in
grammatical terms, there is a necessary disjuncture between subject
and object. That is, in order to perceive myself thinking, I have to
hold in mind an image of myself—not necessarily a visual
one—engaging in thought. But it is impossible for a being held in
mind and the being who is holding it in mind to be identical: one is
an image constructed by the other while trying to represent itself to
itself. There is thus a gap between the perceiving self and the self
perceived:
I think, therefore I am
unstable.
What this means in terms
of self-knowledge is that we can never know more than an incomplete
representation of ourselves: a construct written on the mind by
influences both internal and external. Necessarily, that
representation will evolve, but there is no guarantee that its later
versions will be more accurate or “true” than their predecessors.
The gap remains, an unknowably wide event horizon surrounding an
ever-receding center—the intellect's own black hole. Or to
paraphrase Shakespeare's Iago, “We are not what we are.”
The Cartesian self has
problems not just at its heart but on its edges as well, specifically
in determining where and what its edges might be. Part of the
difficulty is that, as Michael Shermer observes, for sound
evolutionary reasons we are all natural dualists. The image of the
mind as non-material spirit stuff has a lot of traction not only in
our culture but also in our species. And if this entity is
non-material, the notion of fixing it in space, and perhaps in time,
verges on the absurd. But if we follow the evidence and its
implications (see previous posts)—the fact that the mind fails and
can be fooled in predictable ways when parts of the brain are damaged
or sensory perception challenged, the fact, as Andy Clark notes, that
the brain does not distinguish between a body part and a thoroughly
mastered tool—then we can posit tentative borders for selfhood. On
the other hand, if the boundaries of the self as constructed by the
brain vary with the experiences of a lifetime, then the problem
arises again in a different form: if our identities can be shown at
the most basic physical level not to be bound by their immediate
biological frameworks, how far outward or inward, and with what
degree of permanency, can they extend and endure?
I won't try to pin those
questions down just now: for the current meditation, it's enough just
to shake loose the often-unconscious assumption that who we are is
necessarily knowable, non-contingent, and fixed. It's the notion of
the contingent, non-Cartesian identity that I'd like to explore,
particularly as it relates to Uncle Arthur. This understanding of
selfhood raises questions about the value of experience, and of his
particular tragedy, and the degrees to which his identities are bound
up with the systems in which they became submerged.
iv
I'll never know how
Arthur Lindsay thought about himself, or the kinds of questions he
asked himself huddling in a louse-infected bunker, lining up in a
trench waiting for the whistle, or running across a broken landscape
into rifle and machine-gun fire with a bullet in his chamber and a
mounted bayonet. Nor can I know how close his image of himself came
to the unknown and unknowable reality. All of the pieces, and the
relationships among them, that made Arthur himself to himself are
gone, the events that in the end buried one identity under another in
the same aging skull now a century in the past.
But if there is nothing
eternal in us, if no part of our identity is separable from physical
and social determinants, and if the very notion of “I” is a story
we tell ourselves about ourselves in a lifelong feedback loop with no
fixed referent or location, then what does it matter that every now
and then, one of these life-long improvisations suddenly changes
tempo and morphs into a completely different kind of thing? To be
clear, I'm not presenting this question as a straw man argument: it
falls into a common category of questions, all of which draw upon the
same flawed reasoning: In the absence of immortal spirit stuff, how
can there be meaning in life? If we are “only” biological
machines, what basis can there be for morality? In the absence of
transcendental existence, how can anything mean anything at all? Or
to rephrase these questions in the affirmative: Some eternal
principle is required for meaning to exist. However, this line of
thought sidesteps the fact that that both meaning and the capacity to
make it—i.e. the capacity for symbolic thought—are demonstrably
linked to the functioning of the cerebral cortex. So if our capacity
to make and experience meaning is innate to our biology, meaning
itself is necessarily biological, not metaphysical or transcendent.
It arises from the emergent phenomenon of consciousness and thus can
be understood as a property of the physical world.
Like all the men with
whom he shared the line and against whose lines he alternately
charged and defended, Arthur was a product of his time and place.
There's nothing new in this observation, nor in the resulting
observation that most people alive today would, in the same
circumstances, have behaved in the same ways as the people of his
generation, no matter how deep their present conviction of the war's
foolishness, waste, and ultimate moral bankruptcy. This conclusion
though, which follows from the premises of an organism's behavior
being determined by genetics and environment, and our own genetic
consistency with the people of just a few generations ago, dovetails
smoothly into the cyborg notion of distributed identity or embodied
consciousness.
The notion here is that
identity is not centered at any one point but rather distributed
across the knowing system, which at minimum consists of the lobes of
the brain but in fact can include not just the biological apparatus
but any social or technological scaffolding that contributes in an
integral and un-self-conscious way to the experiences of knowing and
selfhood. An easy example might be an enactment of the identity
“musician,” an identity impossible without the requisite
knowledge—for instance the ability to make a given instrument
produce a given set of sounds as naturally as a fluent speaker
produces utterances or a fluent writer writes them down—not forming
or even being aware of the constituent motions and details but rather
enacting the desired result with, at times, no more thought than one
might give to breathing. In this case, both the hardware and the
training that goes into mastering it are integral to the embodied
identity. Biology in isolation from technology and social context
cannot account for that. In other words, it is precisely those things
not present in the physicality of our brains that allow us to
be, or imagine ourselves to be, anything more than physically
deficient apes.
So sticking with our
hypothetical musician, let's make her a member of a band. While each
band member has an identity outside of their musical collaborations,
the medium of music, along with their shared relationships with it,
each other, the named identity of the group, and its relationship
with the public, defines a collective identity of which any one
member is a single module. And as anyone who has followed any band
over a long career will know, the collective identity often sustains
itself quite well as various modules detach or burn out and are
replaced by fresh components. Substitute violence for music and
weapons for instruments, and congratulations: you just joined the
army. This analogy provides a mechanism for understanding Uncle
Arthur on the one hand, and understanding both myself and my fellow
bipedal apes on the other.
v
Picture Arthur as a young
man. He has grown up in a large comfortable family, gone through the
usual late Victorian and Edwardian public education, made the long
and supposedly permanent crossing of the Atlantic, and embarked on a
settled, productive life as a citizen of the Empire. He still lives
under the Union Jack, still considers himself British, and enjoys the
company of people like himself. A Presbyterian from a long line of
Presbyterians, he goes to church regularly and understands the
centrality of work to who and what he is. He doesn't talk about these
convictions as there is no need to do so—they are familiar,
self-evident, and thus quietly assumed. Also assumed is his place
within the Empire, not just politically but ideologically: the
knowledge—and for a young middle-class white man from Britain it
was taken to be knowledge—that the flag that flew over 40% of the
world's land mass and, effectively, over most of its oceans, did so
by the legitimate use of power guided by both human and divine
justice. He has his being, both biological and non-biological,
through the Empire—quite literally, he lives through and by the
Empire—and inversely, the Empire lives through him and people like
him: a holographic polity played out both externally and internally.
Then: the War.
And with the War: a rapid
re-configuring of not just who but also what he is. His horizons
contract both geographically and spiritually while his bonds with the
men who now share and largely define his world intensify. The high
ideals for which he has been taught to value the Empire are stripped
from him in the first bombardment as he comes to know the
un-euphemized conclusion of his own society's industry. He learns
that his life is worth less than the continued operation of any given
piece of artillery as he is easier and cheaper to replace. At the
same time, both his training and his experience teach him that his
function overlaps those of the men and machines with whom he shares
the front, his life now in the hands of people who had recently been
strangers on the one hand, and on the other, of the masses,
velocities, and trajectories of grenades, bullets, and shells.
Math—his life is in the hands of math. He is part of a machine
stretching from the North Sea to the Swiss Alps, facing another
version of itself across a narrow and shifting gap—or maybe simply
another part of itself: a single apparatus set to work devouring a
generation as it feeds itself with itself.
But no machine processes
input without producing a corresponding output, and all machines are
constrained by both their designs and, prior to these, their
underlying assumptions. The most important assumption for our
purposes is the I/NOT-I distinction as this is foundational to any
human conflict. Also important to remember is that, though the
machine's output may be more homogeneous, less nuanced, than its
input, it is nonetheless just as real.
These are the terms in
which I've had to reconsider Uncle Arthur's tragedy. Where until
recently, I've seen this in terms of a true identity being
overwritten by a false one, the bleaker but more tenable conclusion
is that Arthur and Tommy were equally real. And in being equally
real, they were also equally non-existent. As Robert Pepperell notes,
the mind, contrary to the predominant religious and philosophic
assumptions that have misguided the West for millennia, is best
understood not as a thing but rather as an activity: just as walking
is an activity of the legs and other parts, so the mind is an
activity of the extended knowing system centered on, but not
necessarily confined to, the brain. And just as any given instance of
walking cannot be said to exist once the legs have stopped moving, so
any given mind cannot be said to exist once the system from which it
emerges stops functioning.
It follows that our
identities can also be understood as actions rather than actors, with
the actor recognized not as the self-conscious being but instead as
the extended physical system that performs the gestures of selfhood.
In a fully developed, well rounded identity, those gestures may
resemble a dance, as they did for instance in Arthur's case. But as
the enacting system is damaged, or as it wears down, that dance can
degenerate into a lockstep, or a limp. But a limp is no less real
than a dance: both are articulations of the systems from which they
arise, and neither has any continuity beyond its system's operation.
On the bright side, the
limits of the system are unclear—our boundaries uncertain, the
I/NOT-I distinction, if it exists at all, more of a fluctuating field
than a hard and fixed line. We are not—or at least need not
remain—imprisoned in the psychological and social mechanisms that
define and seek to contain us. Nor need we remain, or see ourselves
as being, constrained by our superficially obvious edges. Our brains
do not differentiate between body parts and fully mastered tools
(Clark 2008), without which many of our identities would be
impossible. Nor need we assume that the indeterminate field of
identity negotiation does not overlap, and even contain, other selves
with whom we have relationships, or that the fields centered on other
people do not overlap and contain us. We extend into groups—army
units, musical bands, families, intimate friends—and those groups
themselves, as well as the people who make them up, also extend into
us. We extend as well into our physical environments, especially
those parts with which we are deeply familiar. With all of these
extensions branching from our brains through our bodies, tools,
social circles, and locales, the notion of the isolated,
self-contained conscious being, so central to both our apparent
common sense and guiding ideologies, becomes at best questionable and
at worst untenable and destructive. Or perhaps this insular identity
really is possible, but only through an act of self-amputation that
has become so commonplace that its innate psychological violence is
invisible to us. The wound is so ubiquitous that we may never even
notice we are in pain.
If, however, we recognize
the relational nature of our beings and identities, then we no longer
accept the necessity of this amputation. Further, we embrace, or at
least have the option of embracing, the possibility that our selves
overlap and interweave with other selves as well as the environment
and technological frameworks through which those selves arise. Such a
move, if taken to its conclusion, can re-configure the basis for both
moral relationship and self-interest. If there is no absolute
boundary between I and NOT-I, between me and you, then I can't say
with certainty that your well-being is not my well-being, that my
community's well-being is not my well-being, or that the well-being
of the socio-technological scaffolding through which our identities
are embodied and enacted is not my well-being as well. That is, the
insular personality of Hobbesian and Lockean, or even Rousseauvian
philosophy, to say nothing of the rational and self-interested lone
actor beloved of contemporary neo-conservatives, is little more than
a mutilated stump of a person.
vi
As I began with a story
about death, I'd like to conclude with a story about life. Recently,
while attending the FREDtalks conference at which I presented a
preliminary version of this meditation, I learned that a friend of
mine is pregnant. My immediate reaction was joy for Danielle as she
was obviously happy, but then it occurred to me that I was already in
a moral relationship with her child, and further, that insofar are
there is no hard boundary between me and her, there is also no hard
boundary boundary between her extended identity, obviously including
her baby-to-be, and my own. Her child is thus a facet of my own being
just as I am a facet of its being, and its ultimate happiness is not
entirely separable from mine. That connection is not a mere
abstraction. Rather, the Enlightenment notion of the self as an
isolated and self-contained being is the abstraction—a particularly
cold abstraction—that denies the richness of both subjective
experience and objective fact.
It's in this organic,
technological, and perpetually extending web of selves or self that
Uncle Arthur, Tommy, an unnamed unborn baby, and “I” meet up.
Maybe it's possible to peak out from under the shadow of the First
World War, and maybe it's not. We'll probably never know whether
we've managed it. One thing is clear, however: the logic behind both
the ideologies and the mechanisms that made that war and its many
consequences possible is a logic of perpetual reduction, perpetual
separation, at once drawing lethal lines between US and THEM, and
building up collective identities in which only the least nuanced
facets of our subjective uniqueness can have any place, in which our
Arthurs are melded into Tommies, the textures of our
minds and experiences flattened to a level better suited to the
collective impulse toward dominance. In this sense, the difference
between flesh-and-blood Tommies and the collective hive-mind of an
entity such as Star Trek TNG's Borg is merely one of metaphor,
and perhaps not even that.
Danielle's baby presents
another option, no less collective on the one hand but on the other,
expansive rather than reductive in terms of the texture of experience
and identity. Here, boundaries are transcended rather than enforced
at the edges, and interwoven rather than detonated in the interior,
self-interest fusing with empathy to the point that the mindsets, at
least in potential, merge into a single impulse toward well-being.
Our identities are always already embedded in others, and theirs in
us. The more fully we embrace this in-born mutuality, the richer and
more nuanced our identities will have the chance to become. And while
I have not yet explored these ideas to their furthest conclusions,
I'm beginning to wonder whether just this kind of shift in perceived
identity is what we need to start addressing the social ills
currently besetting North-American democracy, with its increasing
tendency toward economic inequity in the name of some truncated
neo-conservative individuality—the pursuit of perpetually
increasing wealth at the cost of perpetually contracting moral
horizons. We can do, and be, better. And recognizing the
non-existence of the boundaries that separate us may may offer a way
of moving past our mutual alienation—toward learning how to address
one another with a greater emphasis on the music we can make than on
the range and power of our guns.